I can remember back to the point where my life felt as if it were just a constant downhill spiral. Seemed like no matter what I did it was one step forward and two steps back. I was in a new city and I was talking to a new peer about how I needed change. I blamed everything except for myself. I blamed the city and people in it for how my life was becoming. Told him maybe I just needed to move again to somewhere different.
I will never forget him telling me the cold hearted truth, the city wasn't the problem, I was. I was the one making the choices to make my life the way it was. I wasn't actively trying to change things and myself. I was simply waking up repeatedly each morning just hoping things would change. I knew what I didn't like and I knew how I wanted things to be, but I wasn't putting any effort into making positive changes. I was in a position that some days it was just easier to continue down that rabbit hole.
Years later, what that man said to me still remains in my heart. I was the problem. My choices were the problem. One day I finally had enough of it all. I needed to find my self-confidence again to be able to change. So I joined BODi and started doing "all the things." I forced myself to wake up early for my workouts, which meant an early/healthy bedtime. I started communicating with my team more and being honest with them and myself about why I was on this journey. And most importantly, I dug deep into Personal Development reading daily! Eventually this routine of things I'm "supposed to be doing" turned into "habits that I enjoy" and now I can't imagine a day without them.
It didn't happen overnight, a goal that big and strong never does. And who would want it to? I can now look back and see the continuous work, tears, truth, and strength that it took to get to this point of my life. THAT is what makes my testimony so much more special to me.
I finally realized, I have the power to make positive changes in my life. And you do too! I promise you this. If you ever need help overcoming something or reaching a goal, big or small, come to me. I absolutely WILL NOT do it for you, nobody did it for me (and I'm thankful for that!). But I will be right there beside you every step of the way just like my team was and still is for me.
Until next time,
Stephanie
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